i know you have had this feeling. we all have.
i am glad i live in a small place right now, when i come home i check all 4 rooms for anyone who might have gotten past the lazy beagle. no one is ever there...thank goodness!
life is alot like this poster you know?
people are afraid to go out on a limb or into that basement and do something different , by themselves, or meeting a new group of people
today is a day you should venture into the basement first....
i'll give you a dollar!
you know how it is,,,,as artist we are constantly needing something to do...keep our minds creative and active. and times we need just something simple and easy to do just for us.
i finally finished my scarf i was making! i love the yarns i used manos of course, personal favorite and some lovely finger lace weight angora my sister gave me for christmas last year . the two worked great together to make the scarf, and i even have enough of both to have some fingerless gloves made for me....if i can trade swap with someone for this,,,,ahem katy hehe
sorry the photos aren't so great i wanted to get this posted , as i have been a bit absent from my blog lately!
enjoy!
after a few weeks of sitting around, not being able to force myself to do anything i am finally ....FINALLY feeling like myself again.
the creative energy was all but gone. something zapped it from me.
i have an art show i am participating in at the end of this month and since it was announced i have been wrestling with myself about what to make. i used to do shows in florida, more country and massive amounts of product. several reasons why i stopped. one main one was i wanted to make things a little more personal and detailed ~ not conveyor belt style 'santa's sweatshop' style work. which is what it was becoming. nothing unique anymore . so i stopped.....just stopped. that was over 10 years ago. and i came up with what i like to make...and what i am good at, not what people wanted me to make and basically give to them.
now it is time.
its time to stop this perhaps self-imposed exile i have had myself in, i looked up the meaning check it out:
*Self-exile is often practiced as a form of protest, to avoid persecution, an act of shame or repentance, or isolating oneself to be able to devote time to a particular thing.*
the last part of the definition is so not what i have been doing. has it been repentance? maybe. protest, perhaps. avoid persecution, yes for sure no one likes to be criticized, and i had plenty of that going on for a long long time.
maybe its all the time i have spent alone the past month. the wedding is over. i don't have to think about that planning anymore, truly soul sucking even for a simple picnic wedding. i have had time to just decompress and adjust to not having to do anything but simply do what i have been wanting to do for so long. and you know maybe that is it , really. always being at the becon call of your employer, family, friends, etc and finally being able to just be.....its very scary and exciting and quite frankly hard to get used to. almost like a junkie coming off whatever they have been dependent on for so long, is the best way i can describe it.
so almost like a hand smacking you on your forehead is what i feel right now.
i have everything i need.....
my husband and i were 2nd place winners tonight in a trivia contest, we had a blast! i started thinking of all the stuff we do together to just have fun, like today we spent 5 hours watching crappy movies and about every half hour saying 'what should we do today?' loosers hahaha. seriously we kept cracking up we could not think of a thing. so when my dear friend melanie said it was trivia night we were in~ and i thought , you don't need fancy trips, lavish lifestyle, or endless bank accounts~ you have what you need right in front of you. friends, family, endless creativity surging throughout your head and soul, a truly supportive man who loves and adores you(even if that is still such an odd concept to me....i have had some relationship issues in the past)
i have everything i need.....and its time i share it now.
share my talents, my stories, my visions....myself.
this time of year is more like new year's to me than new year's itself
why?
its time for school to start..the end of summer and the plants all change to their fall colorfest
making new friends, keeping up with old friends. planning for upcoming holidays and festivities.
i am adjusting to not being in a regular job right now and having mark back on a day shift schedule
after almost 2 years of overnight shift, i think i am making a harder adjustment than him!
i got into the very bad routine of watching tv with the dog til at least midnight, then just falling
asleep on the couch. yeah the couch that needs new foam in the cushions that is a bit uncomfortable
and the last time mark sat on it said "holy crap! thats uncomfortable" although i have been telling
him this for at least 6 months now....hahaha
i have also had alot of 'alone' time with myself, sort of retreating from people i know and normally
chat or talk to everyday , i am trying to come to a happy medium about what i want in life and how
to achieve it. i have come to the realization about many things in the past month.
most are all good, the ones that aren't so good~ well i am learning to accept and work within the
realms of what it all is.
so to this time of year that is MY new year's time
i say welcome....
new ideas, new ways to live, reconnecting with those i have lost track of, keeping up with the
friends and loved ones i have in my life.
today i had lunch with rita and her oldest...my best little buddy, wyatt!
he is in pre-school now and LOVES it.
we were in the restroom and he was rambling on and on about all the things he gets to do
as a daily helper for the teacher....
he said 'aunt mary you know the BEST thing?'
i said 'no buddy what?'
'i get to tell a joke to the class , wanna hear it?'
'well sure buddy let me hear it'
'why did the zebra cross the road?'
'hmm i don't know why did the zebra cross the road wyatt?'
*giggle* 'to buy a LEMON!' *more giggles
it makes no sense....only to him hahahaha
sam wants to wish everyone
a
spooky
happy halloween
although he will not be dressing up this year
he doesn't like to wear clothes
he still would like someone to get him a treat
like chicken nuggets
or his freaky other favorite
cottage cheese!
yes i have a spooky dog!!!
some people might think walking through cemeteries are morbid and creepy , i think just the opposite
there is so much to learn from those who went before us
the way they lived, what they did in life, their favorite things
the carvings on the headstones are amazing to see, from the newer laser ones that depict one's favorite
vacation spot or sports team to their photos so everyone can remember them in life. the older
carvings are fascinating, from the weeping willow that represents sorrow to the cut tree that lets
one know that their life was cut short.
franklin cemetery in franklin michigan is a peaceful place, with old and new headstones all mixed
together.
mark and i often get in the car and just go for a ride and we are finding ourselves more and more
at these tranquil spots, and we just walk and talk and learn.
so take a little walk with me as we did .....
little statues and personal memento's are everywhere
the sun lit everything up, indian summer is here for a short time
symbols of belief are strong and varied
this one was very interesting to see all the symbols within the cross
and for some reason i found this little angel statue to be so pretty
part of the veteran's memorial there
this little guy has been there a very long time...standing watch and listening to the world as it goes by
profound statement....don't you think?
thanks for taking a walk with me today.
daydreaming sam.....
he might be daydreaming about the upcoming winter, he turns into a happy spazzy dog when there is snow on the ground.....uh me ~ not so much
he could be daydreaming about his buddy across the street ~ lucy
or maybe just maybe he is thinking ~ jeeesh ma ENOUGH with the pictures already!
sam, like most of us , is a creature of habit. he knows when he feels comfortable, when he is safe, and most of all where he can take an uninterrupted nap!
such was the case at the cabin. after two days in a strange hotel and walking around a scary place with horses and loud boats, sam found solace in the cabin. and, as you can see, immediately claimed his spot!
he also enjoyed the fact that there is finally a dish network and a flat screen t.v. there.....oh wait that was me!
